All of them

Simon, I’ve asked you to leave me alone. I said I wasn’t going g to pick up where you left it. I didn’t want to block you but now I have so next time you send me a ‘hey’ at 10pm not only I won’t see it but hopefully you see you are blocked and really leave me alone. You are and were so wrong for me.

Instead: Blocked hi

Anonymous · day 21

You message me and tell me you’re going to end things with her so I don’t feel replaced. But I was replaced. You chose her over me. You can’t undo that. Why tell me now??? You broke my heart after 16 years. I’m allowed to feel hurt and telling me that now doesn’t change that.

Instead: Watched a movie and cried

Anonymous · day 39

Did you ever really love me Mike? Or did you just love how I helped you with getting your lawyer bills and back child support paid to your baby mama?Did you like all the classic cars I bought you and the 2 businesses I bought into to try to make you happy? Did you love me when I paid the bills when you took jobs that weren't paying the bills? Did you feel for a minute, how I might feel about spending the profit of my life's work? I was always there to keep us from going bankrupt. I paid those bills because I didn't want to go bankrupt and dragged under with you. I went to therapy to vent about you and your 4 generations of a mentally unstable family, that I thought I could help. Do you know how hard it is to be empathetic to an entire family that I married into, where everyone is either an enabler or a narcissist, or dismissive avoidant? You and all of your family should come with a warning label. I poured out my love, heart and money into you and I look back and see less than the bare minimum given back. Mike, you took sides against me. You gave up on me. You broke my heart. I'm writing this 3 years after our separation and I'm still trying to get over why I still have feelings for you. I should hate you. But I don't. We were together a long time. 20 years of marriage. I didn't say I do, to say I don't. But this is where we are. I'm 62 now and I'll spend the rest of my life on my own terms, because, I can never make that kind of sacrifice again. It was the most exhausting and anxiety provoking experience of my life. So, you will never read this. And what would be the point? I should have understood when you said "I use you, you use me." Those were probably the most honest words you ever said to me. It shocked the hell out of me when you said it. Was that all our marriage was to you? If I could get this through your thick skull so you could understand, but you will never get it. I still ask myself everyday, how I still have feeling for you. I don't fully understand that yet. They say it's my nervous system. I'm not going to contact you, look for you or call you. I suppose we will just live in each other's minds, with completely different recollections of our life together.

Karen · day 1202

I can't stop thinking about you. I replay every moment and even when I'm with someone else, I imagine what you would have said or did and I laugh and smile because you would have made me laugh if you were still with me. No one wants to get to know me. I cycle through dates but I can't find anyone who makes me smile like you did. I am okay for a few weeks, then I drive by your house again, or I message you. But you ignore me or tell me to leave you alone. I know you aren't good for me....I KNOW IT....but I can't get you out of my heart.

Instead: colored my hair

Anonymous · day 270

You chased and begged me to give you a chance, and ive never béen so disrespected in my life. It was wrong to make someone fall in love so cruelly. You never chose me, you chose your ex, you chose gambling,you chose drink and you chose drugs but never me. You took my love for clout, u liked how i made you look and feel, you used me. You went ba k to what you ran away from as it was easier to do than to say sorry.....and mean it. Im not jelous, im so disappointed in you. That was the most brutal 4 months of my life.....and the worst part was, we were friends first

Instead: Got off the sofa, ran a bath and put some comforting tv show, was like a warm hug.

Nathan · day 130

I wish you wanted the family unit. We are grandparents but you are not in the picture. Why didn’t you want to repair ?

Instead: Sat outside

Anonymous

Users Amassing millions, billions, trying for trillions Amassing Finding advantageous opportunities A failing company A failing heart An estate sale of grand proportions Amassing Using, extracting, moving on. Calling it progress Calling it business Calling it love. Entrepreneurs of business Entrepreneurs of hearts Users

Instead: Let it sit in notes.

Esther · day 400

I want you back so badly. I can’t function, I can’t eat. I wake up every day with this gut wrenching feeling that things will never be the same again

Instead: Cried

Anonymous · day 28

I saw all the red flags, but I still wanted you, because you made me feel something I haven't felt in a long time. You said that I mentally and physically excite you, that you wished I was there when you were going to bed. You said we must meet, four times. I agreed each time. Yet you didn't pick a date so I said let's stop texting until you got a date, which took you 2 weeks to come up with. Yet when it came to arranging a time and location, you disappeared for a full day. You can't have been that excited about me. When I said let's not meet, you were surprised. You said fate will sort it out and we will meet eventually. I would like to see your actions, rather than fate, to make a date happen. You said we could have a wonderful relationship, no matter what form. You didn't tell me that you have a long-term partner with whom you are living, I found out on social media a few days after I called off our date because I had that gut feeling. So how exactly is that relationship going to work? I told you that I don't want to get hurt and you said you don't want to get hurt either. I feel deceived, played with and hurt. You keep liking my social media posts, just like the posts of hundreds of other much younger women/models. What's the point of that? You don't want me. You have a woman at home. You present yourself as the moral, good guy on social media. What about the hurt you caused to me and your woman? Who doesn't know about your online behaviour. You don't know that I know. It takes me all my strength not to text you. I know I shouldn't but I miss how you made me feel. Before I discovered that all of that was a lie. And that in fact I wasn't special to you.

Instead: Cried

I feel stupid · day 209

I didn't realize you were capable of the level of cruelty you showed me at the end. Our reunion of sorts I guess you would call it. After 2 years of being apart, you said oh I love you I missed you, kissed me on the lips. We were making plans to go to the amusement park and go out to eat. You are naked in your bathroom with me. But a few short weeks later, you had your meltdown. Poor me nothing works out for me, my kids won't help me. Then I sent you the text messages about Manning up and facing yourself. The 12 years of being stuck at a job you hate, refusing to clean out your horde, being jealous of everyone else even though you have plenty of money to fix all of it. You thanked me and then when I asked you not to date my friends you refused and said you were going to help her again with her clinic. I then said do whatever you want I wish you the best but I'm not having this rubbed in my face. And you never responded. It's been 3 weeks. How could you have such a little integrity to reel me in and then stop me to the ground? But all those years you showed me how I wasn't your choice I was just an option so why was I so devastated by this final blow? I just hope there comes a Day in the near future when I can truthfully feel in my heart thank you for staying out of my life once and for all.

Instead: I keep giving it to God because I've tried all these years and it never worked. Nothing works with you.

M · day 22

I don't know why you keep contacting me Jennifer. I want to tell you you really hurt my feelings by dating my ex. Why did you even reach out to me and ask about it if you were going to disregard my feelings? I guess you never heard about the girl code, it's one where you don't date your friends exes. And I asked him specifically not to date you either and of course he didn't care. What a great basis for your new relationship. You really don't need to reach out to me anymore, as I know you aren't a friend.

Instead: I put it in God's hands because I'm not getting in the middle of this. Unless she specifically asks me why did you unfriend me. Then I will give her the text.

M · day 22

Hey , I know it’s been a while … And I’m not contacting you to cause any trouble .. I know it’s over. I understand that you don’t love me, and that we aren’t going to be together… But I guess I just need to say my piece… —————————————————— I Really Did Love You Omar.. And while there were issues that we both needed to work on, I was still willing to try as many times as it took for us to finally get it right…. Because I thought it was worth it … Because I wanted Us that much… And the fact that you spent almost 4 years coming in and out of my life …. Always giving me hope and then snatching it away…. The ghosting , The silent treatment, The total disregard for my feelings…. Telling me that you wanted to try to build something real, just to turn around and discard me again, like I was nothing …. after I took the chance to trust you even after everything you put me through… That was a real slap in face … Maybe you don’t realize it.. Or Maybe You Don’t Care… But You Really Hurt Me Omar Because despite our issues, I never lead you on, I never lied to you … And I was never reckless or cavalier with your feelings…So I just can’t understand how you could be so careless with mine … You Broke My Heart Omar.

Instead: Sat quietly hoping for some kind of feeling of relief or confirmation that not sending it to him was the right move. That feeling didn’t come , so I went and washed my hair . I’m still waiting , but I guess it’s just gonna take some time …

Anonymous · day 225

I thought of you tonight watching the skies...and i hoped that you were somewhere and that you are good and happy..still miss you tho dammit....I blame the eclipse!✨

Instead: Hmm..cried!

Mez · day 7

Were you just lying the whole time? Am I just the idiot who fell for them? I know it doesn’t matter and this is what’s best. I deserve more. It still hurts that your words never matched your actions, and that I had to find the strength to leave because you would never fully let me go.

Instead: Called my sister.

Anonymous · day 51

Are you an avoidant? I think I was anxiously attached to you. I was devastated but I’m slowly getting better since you discarded me. It’s ups and downs. You are still constantly in my mind day and night. I recently learned about limerence and think you trigger this in me. I have the whisky I bought you. I’m waiting for the cold nights to come so I can drink it at a bonfire with a friend. I think I’ll take a photo of it and send it to you thanking you for the recommendation 😂 I’m dating again. There’s still hope for me. I appreciated our time together even if it made me become unhinged when you ended it 😳 I learned things. Hope you’re ok. I don’t think you are a bad person. I miss talking to you.

Instead: I’m at work on my break.

TT · day 32

rough night last night, everything just feels off without you here

Rick · day 3

Why did you have to leave me x

Instead: Made myself a coffee

Monica · day 10

I don't know who I am without you

Michelle · day 276

you were supposed to be the one

Anonymous

typing it here so i don't type it to you. I miss you but I never want to see you again - that's pretty messed up. see what you did to me

Instead: went out with the girls

lana · day 300

I’ve never really though of myself as adhd or on the spectrum but I work with children who have it I believe my daughters have it sorry my brain has just gone off on a tangent again. I thought I was who I am because of circumstance not because my brain worked differently. I know I’ve always thought differently to my family, friends but just put it down to being odd or a freak of nature. I’ve spent years being unkind to myself and looking for someone just to accept me for who I was. 34 when I married thought he was the one because he said the things I couldn’t say to myself. Now 20 years later I’m lonely, my kids are flying the nest and the compliments stopped a long time ago and the negative ones appeared. I now see him for who he is and I want more. But I want more from myself. I want the kindest from myself. I want the compassion for myself.

Instead: Cried

C · day 16

Charlie. You seem to have a perfect life so why did you invade mine, make me love you even more than I did in 1971, and then throw me away to go back to your perfect life? How were you able to hold me and look in my eyes claiming to love me knowing you were hurting me in the end? You broke me in half. I should hate you. But I don't and I would run into your arms if you ever came back. It's 3am and I can't sleep missing you. Why did you do this to me? You're the one person I thought would never hurt me. I could never hurt you.

Instead: Cried convincing myself he would hate it if I bothered him. He went from telling me I meant everything to him to insisting I forget him.

Martie · day 360

i feel like I can't breathe without you - i miss the little things

Anonymous

Almost 20 years my friend and I are living together. Though for a few years ago I did not want him in my bed anymore. He accepts it.. He is younger than me. Several times I told him my retirement is coming. And that I shouldn't wait "for only his holidays" to do whatever I want to do in my life I have left... No reaction from his side apart from hmmm ok... So after 4 weeks holidays "at home" I went to my 2nd home and I stayed there for 3 weeks. Because he -also there- can work at home, he was working in my 2nd home, and suddenly he came into the room I am sitting, crying.... stating that he will have to go home on his own as he (always) has to go to the office for 1 day in a week..... Since than he is never calm, does lots of things together in steeds of (normally) dingen one thing at the time.... This is now going on since the start of July... he does not decide anything.... not what we should eat, nor where to go to.... I gave him the advice to go and talk to his GP, but he doesn't want that. He claims me.... and I don't know how to escape from it.... It makes me kind of unstable too... He is having his own holidays richt now and we are going to my 2nd home..... tomorrow... He makes me almost feeling guilty for not having to work anymore....

Anonymous

I’ll never see you again and I can’t believe it

Anonymous

Why don’t you even think about me? Why’s it so easy to forget me!??

Instead: Moaned at friends

Anonymous

I cry every day about you. I don’t even want you. It’s like you put a hex on me

Instead: Screamed mostly

Anonymous

So angry I gave you my heart body and soul and for what ? Many friends and family could never understand why I married you and why we were together they do say that opposites attract you were dark and dangerous I liked that the red flags I didn't see or chose to ignore my mother in law said I was the first person she knew that stood up to you .We were like clash of the Titans I was 27 when I met you.You were 36 if you said you can't do that I said watch me I didn't like being told what to do you couldn't box me into a corner !!

Instead: Went for a walk listened to some of my favourite music walked in the woods cried to the trees they new understood Nature is so wonderful

CAROL · day 7

I haven’t slept well since with you I miss you at night.

Anonymous

I love you Carl. I've loved you for two years. I've loved the times we've spent together and everything we've shared about our lives in between. I truly thought we were slowly building something that we both said we wanted. My heart still wants you..that might not change. I just want to hold you, really I do. I've spent months being patient with your work schedule, reasured you when you questioned my love for you, patiently tried to find time we could see each other. I meant every word. I hate not speaking to you. I'm so incredibly sad it has ended this way xx

Instead: Put it in my notes and cried. Lots.

Anonymous

I don't even know why I'm writing this, I know I'm not gonna send it, I just need to get it out somehow because it's doing my head in. I've been sat here for the last hour just staring at your name, Ryan, started this about six times and deleted it every time cause it kept coming out wrong, too angry, then too sad, then sounding like I still want you back which I don't, I don't think, I don't actually know anymore if I'm honest. I keep going over everything trying to work out when it started, I can't pin down when you switched off, I really can't, was it the weekend in St. Ives, was it before that, even our anniversary I keep coming back to, you booked my favourite restaurant, ordered that champagne we liked, you even said you were lucky to have me, and now I don't even know if that was real or if you were already somewhere else in your head by then, that's actually the bit that gets me more than the cheating itself, not knowing how much of any of it was even true, I keep asking myself that and I don't have an answer. I think about who I was before I found out and I feel stupid for her honestly, she was so happy, she told everyone how good things were, she actually got defensive when someone made a joke about you always working late, properly stuck up for you, imagine that, she had no clue, none, I don't really know how to be her again, I don't even know if I want to, I'm just so tired of carrying this now, tired in a way sleep doesn't fix. some days I'm just angry, properly angry, the kind where I want to throw something, why did you do this to me Ryan, why, how could you do that and still let me plan things around you, still let me talk about the future like there even was one, other days I just feel pathetic, like how did I not see it, what does that even say about me that I trusted you that much, and then other days I just miss you, plain and simple, no anger in it at all, just missing the person I actually thought you were. I miss you and I hate you, sometimes in the same five minutes, which makes no sense but that's genuinely how it feels, a song comes on and I miss you, then I remember and I want to scream, I catch myself cooking enough for two still and it wrecks me every single time, every single time, you'd think I'd have stopped doing that by now. I think I'm doing okay and then something stupid sets it off, your car, a name that sounds a bit like yours, someone's laugh in a shop that sounds like yours for half a second, and I just have to stand there for a bit before I can carry on with whatever I was doing. I'm not sure what I wanted from writing this, Ryan, I think I just needed to say it to you properly. even if you never actually see it, even if it makes no difference at all.

K

sad times

Instead: nothing

Anonymous

I'm just sad - I miss you

Anonymous · day 670

I keep asking myself if any of it was even real with you or if I was just there until something better came along

Steph · day 7

Why is it that you get to start again and I'm still here picking up the pieces?

Instead: parked opposite the house he's moved into and sat there for 10 minutes before I could bring myself to drive away

Diane · day 34

Can't believe you ruined something good

Instead: Cleaned my flat

Jane · day 24

Everyone keeps telling me I'm better off without you and I know they're right, I do, but it doesn't stop me being angry about it. You had someone who genuinely loved you, properly, unconditionally, and you f***ing wasted it, for what, so you could go be someone else's problem instead. I hope you think about that every single time it goes wrong again

Naomi · day 50

I can't believe I defended you to everyone, I feel like such an idiot

Instead: Went through old messages looking for the moment I should've seen it coming

Nat · day 45

Do you miss me as much as I miss you?

Instead: Had a nap

S · day 1

I just want to know if you still think about me?

Instead: Went for my hot girl walk

Trish · day 20

Why did you have to come back? I was doing so well and then you sent that message. Now I want you again. I HATE this x

Deb · day 33

I hate that I still check if you've been active

Instead: Had a video call with my niece

Melissa · day 29

It's your birthday tomorrow. I had the whole day planned, down to what we'd have for breakfast. One of your presents is still sitting on the table, wrapped, because I don't know what else to do with it.

Lisa · day 61

You really hurt me.

Instead: Cried. All I do right now

Vanessa · day 15

My mum was right about you

Anonymous · day 49

DON'T YOU DARE MOVE ON BEFORE ME

Instead: Poured myself a glass of wine

Lorna · day 2

You left the group chat like we were nothing and then liked my mum's photo three days later, what is wrong with you. Actually don't answer that, I already know.

Instead: screenshotted it and showed my best friend

Dani · day 38

I've written this out so many times I could recite it. I'm not going to send it because I know exactly how it'll go, you'll read it, you won't reply for two days, and then I'll get a full stop and a "hope you're well."

Instead: I pasted the message here and rang my sister. Had a great chat with her and didn't mention his name once

Clare · day 52

You didn't even fight for it and that's the part I can't get over

Meg · day 11

Jamie, I keep starting texts to you and deleting them. This is the fourth one tonight

Instead: Sent it here

Sarah · day 17

I saw your car outside the gym today and my whole day just stopped

Instead: Went for a walk

G · day 14

Come back.

Anonymous · day 9

Sorry.

Anonymous · day 45

Why did you do that to me?

Instead: Cried in the car before going into work like normal

Anonymous · day 1

I hate that I still miss you. I hate it. I know we were awful and I'm happy now. I am in love now. AND I STILL MISS YOU. I feel like this is a life sentence.

Instead: Put a load of washing on.

M

Miss you.

Anonymous · day 23

do you even think about me

Anonymous · day 6

I just want an answer - did you ever love me?

Instead: Walked. For miles. Spoke to trees and cows. Sounds mad but it worked

Harry · day 500